1. |
You Disappointed Me
06:36
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yeah you're bitter
so you're angy
it's understandable, i'm trying to get a handle on this
can't really talk now
call back tomorrow
and i'll be able to give you your "Who, whats, when, where, and hows"
I see you moving
i see you grooving to the music
and you're under the influence of it
but now your eyes are red, you're barely conscious
do you see who you are now, I don't know
and I find myself saying,
"please come back, I will make this right
I will stay up all night" and I did
yeah, you're lost now can't find your way out
I saw your flare and I went there
you had twigs in your hair
so I picked you up
slung your arm over my shoulder
"said we'll be lost together, we'll make it out
of this shitty ass weather"
but where did you go
I felt so alone
and where are you now
I guess I lost you on the way out
your new neighbors are moving in
and they seem like really good people
say goodbye I'm just an old friend
pack your bags, we're moving out
and I don't know where you left the note
someday you'll know I was right all along
and someday you'll realize you've changed
and theres nothing I can do
someday I'll know you were right all along
and someday I'll realized I've changed
and theres nothing you can do
some day we'll know we were wrong all along
and someday we'll realize we've changed again and again and again
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2. |
Decisions
03:08
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I cannot give a description
But I hope it knows that my heart is good
I cannot make a decision
but I hope it knows I did the best I could
Oh what do you have to say to the ones
you never loved anyway
oh what do you have to say to the ones
you never loved enough to stay
I cannot give you honesty
though I've been trying
do you believe me
I cannot give you all of me
filled you up, but now I'm running on empty
I took off my shoes
I never told you
I walked across the living room
I never told you
You pulled back the closet door
I never told you
I was hiding in a pile of clothes
I never fooled you
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3. |
Devil in a Blue Dress
02:42
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the devil is a lie and that's all i said
and that's why all her lovers wind up dead
and I know that she snaked her way into your bed
and that's how she will find her way into your he'd
"but please oh please
oh please do not bait me," I said
Oh the devil is a god damn lie
she was in a dress when she arrived
and there were no words to be contrived
you stole you stole
oh well, well I lied
"but please oh please
oh please do not hate me" she said
the devil is a lie and that's all I know
when she skipped town my heart was broke
snuck off in the night with my soul
oh the devil is a lie and that's all I wrote
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4. |
Like Me
06:05
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My mother always told me to bite my tongue
"speak when you're spoken to and understand
that you're still young
what do you know about love when all you've seen
is heartbreak"
she said, "like me"
like me, oh like me
don't be afraid if I follow you home
it's just to make sure that you get there safe
but this world is full of bastards these days
but they're just like me
like me, oh like me
oh I sleep in a tree
but it's hard to get rest
when the moon won't stop laughing at me
I told her it's not my fault
that I was born with big feet
but, I guess the moon, she's not a big fan of me
my mother told me that I should be alone
until I understand what it means to be alone
my mother always told me that I should be alone
until I understand what it means to be grown
my mother always told me that I should be alone
until I understand what it really means to let go
never trust a soul whose eye's glow yellow...
Like me
like me, like me, oh like me
they're just like me
but I'm just like them
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5. |
Ode to Anxiety
05:49
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I went to the river to watch you die
and you came back up, pure of grace
white and alive
with no grin as promising
i know you tried
tell ourselves that we'll get better
but we just lie to ourselves
i want you to see me naked
won't have to hide
won't have to fake it
i want to , to see you naked
but I can't with eyes closed
I tell myself that I'll be confident
i'll be brave, won't hide my face
but i can't look at you that way
cause when I do i feel so ashamed
when will the shame go away
oh this feels like self induced vomiting
after drinking
and don't touch me, don't try to please me
don't try to understand, even if you can
and don't touch me, don't try to please me
don't try to understand, maybe you can
oh this feels like self-induced vomiting after drinking
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6. |
Futility
04:24
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Trouble came, I watched it trickle down with the rain
trouble came, I swore I wouldn't go around there again
my troubled brain, it tears me apart it drives me insane
problems came, I fucked up and let my troubles sleep over again
I fell right in, who turned out the lights at the bottom of this lion's den
lovers came, they came and they went with all my money spent
so i bankrupted them, I did
emotionally she wears a mask that screams...
futility
futility, she wears a mask
she drinks from a bottle while I wipe my mouth
wet from a flask
futility, she holds my gaze
she moves her hips, I'm lost for days
futility, she wants me to give in
she begs the question
what's the point of living
I have no answer, only a guess
futility, is the bane of my existence
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7. |
New Shoes
04:21
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I have a new pair of shoes
they lace up and velcro too
I used to wear them to school
they didn't think me very cool
ooh
I used to hang out after school
around our friend's pool
we used to always complain
about having nothing to do
ooh
my friend makenzie thinks I'm cool
I think she's pretty cool too
she let me stay at her house
in an old bedroom
ooh
I have an old pair of shoes
they lace up and velcro too
I used to wear them to school
they don't think I'm very cool
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8. |
Intact/Inhalf
04:36
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if my adamance is senseless
and your persistence belligerent
well then we've backed ourselves this instance
into a wall
empty talk on the highway until we finally stalled
and I was mustering up the courage to finally call you
if you swear that you are, then I swear that I am
in half
if you swear that you are, then I swear that I am
intact
I swear that no one listens
so wrapped in their intentions
oh how eyes do glisten
at the spark of a flame
at the shout of their name
it's always something, we don't know what to do
just close your eyes now and I'll see you through
we go so far, waiting on, on, on
everything that I did was stupid
everything that I thought meant nothing
and everything that I said was lying
and when it came time to tell myself the truth
I just couldn't look at you
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9. |
Departure
05:24
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the other night a friend asked if I was happy
I decided to answer him honestly
"no I'm not and I don't think I'll ever be"
way a crossed town there was another
who spent that night burrowed under their covers
tossing and turning in the absence of body heat
i stumbled upon a well lit porch, i was half drunk and severely bored
we made small talk most of it oh i ignored cause I had my eyes fastened on your bedroom door, you gave me cigarettes I saw signals in your smoke, swallowed anxieties and tried not to choke, but you saw right through me as miserable and broke, so you moved on and I tried to let it go. days go by and I'm still self-loathing, what went wrong, I even wore nice clothing, feeble attempts at hanging out, you're so dramatic when acting out, but you're always wanting someone to see right through you. you know i do, though i doubt you see me too, cause you're full of distractions and I embody inaction, you're long division where I am subtraction
hey there darlin' yeah I know I ain't a man, but I do think I'm just as good as them and I know I don't have shit to offer except, I will never let you suffer alone
you saw me walking alone the other night, when you were turning left on your bike, shouted how are you I said I'm not alright, you glimpsed my withering frame beneath the moonlight. we shared a cigarette and I tried to make a joke, but my tears welled up oh and down I broke, I said, "'i'm so tired, I can't get no relief, persistent headaches and not enough aleeve, I feel so empty so void of all belief that i'll ever be worthy of anyone's care for me." to which oh you replied, "you know what you want, but not what you need, you don this plastic smile, but it ain't fooling me, though I think you like this cause it puts you to sleep, but I wanna wake you up and see you happy"
Now I ain't a goddamn fool I won't always be your only, but at least for now neither of us are lonely, a wheel barrel full of lessons to learn and plenty lessons we should learn, but at least we love ourselves and that's a hard hard badge to earn
hey there darlin' yeah I know I ain't a man, but I do think I'm just as good as him and I know I've got so much to offer as well I will never let you suffer alone
hey there darlin' yeah you know I ain't a man, but you still think I'm just as good as him and I know I've got so much to offer as well I will never watch you suffer alone
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10. |
Escaping
05:06
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Crescent Ulmer Bloomington, Indiana
Crescent Ulmer is a singer-songwriter from Indianapolis. He draws from many influences and genres. Stretching from hip-hop and folk, through jazz, r & b, indie rock, hardcore, pop, world, and punk rock, he pulls it all together to create a full and sweet acoustic sound that is refreshing and interesting to a wide and all inclusive audience. ... more
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